[ 004 ] - entry; private
I feel awful, and I don’t even know why. I mean I do, but…
Something is going on, and I don’t know what it is exactly. It feels like that there is this sadness in me that I cannot explain, and I don’t know what to do… much less what to think – where is Thea? – when confronted with Tyler ( even just having his name mentioned or a thought of him ); my heart would start to pound so hard that it would ache, and instead of loving that feeling like others do with their loved ones – it makes me feel frightened.
He isn’t like any boy I’ve ever known… or messed with. He is my soulmate – for better or for worse. God, the principle makes it sound like we’re married.
Maybe this is that moment in my life that I can’t hide from… urge away… that I should just accept it with open arms, because this is the one thing that is far beyond my grasp – and my magicks.
Stupid principle.
Something is going on, and I don’t know what it is exactly. It feels like that there is this sadness in me that I cannot explain, and I don’t know what to do… much less what to think – where is Thea? – when confronted with Tyler ( even just having his name mentioned or a thought of him ); my heart would start to pound so hard that it would ache, and instead of loving that feeling like others do with their loved ones – it makes me feel frightened.
He isn’t like any boy I’ve ever known… or messed with. He is my soulmate – for better or for worse. God, the principle makes it sound like we’re married.
Maybe this is that moment in my life that I can’t hide from… urge away… that I should just accept it with open arms, because this is the one thing that is far beyond my grasp – and my magicks.
Stupid principle.
